Thursday, December 9, 2010

Now Faith...

Every week in Ethan's Pre-K curriculum that we are doing at home this year he has a memory verse.  He works pretty hard at them and has done really well.  One of the first few verses was Hebrews 11:1:

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

Kind of a tough verse for a 4 year old, but he did pretty well memorizing that one.  He still remembers it, but Caden is the one that has latched onto this verse for some reason.  He only recites the first two words.

"Now faith."

Every morning when we go over Ethan's verse for the week, Caden runs up saying he knows his verse.  He then tells me his verse.

"Now faith."

The same verse everyday for about 3 months now.  He has also asked me what faith means.  I have told him that faith means trusting God.  Some of you might have a better operational definition of faith that can be understood by a two year old, but that is what I came up with on the spot, and he seems to get that.

I have thought that it was strange that he has hung onto this particular verse, and even just these two words for so long given how many other verses we have gone over.  There have been much simpler verses that certainly seem easier for a small child to understand, but this is the one that he keeps spouting off.

"Now faith."

I don't think it is an accident though.

I think God has given me a constant reminder in the form of my sweet 2 year old chasing me around all day telling me he knows his verse.  I need to be reminded that God has all of this under control.  Even my son knows that we are supposed to be trusting God.

We know how clear God has been in leading us in the adoption process.  He has given us so many confirmations along the way.  Yet I am very quick to forget all of it and completely stress out about how we are going to get it all done.  The paperwork is overwhelming.  The financial side is scary.  And when I have 3 kids under the age of 5 running through my house screaming and ripping the place apart I wonder if God picked the wrong mommy for this job.

I need to be reminded that I don't need to know all of the answers.  I will never know all of the answers, but God does.  I am not able to handle all of this on my own, but God certainly can.  God can handle all of the details, big and small.  My only job is to trust God.  Have faith in Him and His ability to accomplish everything that He has planned.  Now.  I am thankful that God knows exactly what I need to hear, when I need to hear it, and how to make sure I hear it over and over and over again.

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